decisions.

As we all know, life consists of numerous decisions, these decisions will determine the course and quality of your life, so you'd want to make good ones wouldn't you?

Well I'm at a point in my life where I have this huge decision I need to make, it can make or break me, and it's quite frightening. My impulsive need to indulge could be the death of me, or the best of me. I haven't quite decided.lol. I'm trying to make the utmost best decisions for myself, and it would seem obviosu that this shouldn't be something I decide to do, but it's not. My artistic creativity fiends for it, and I like it, which I haven't decided if it's good or bad.

I feel that If I carry this on, it would be the biggest self-test for me, and i'm completely intrigued. I already think I have amazing self control & control of others (sounds worse than it is), and this would be the ultimate test, but if I fail. I truly would fail. It's scary, really scary. If I told anyone else they just wouldn't get it, but it makes perfect sense to me. Strictly because I completely understand myself, I know myself really well, I feel I can trust myself, but this is a great gamble.

The worst part is , I've already decided, and now, all I have to do is wait.